i wrote about the UPS and the DOWNS during lockdown #1. UP being busy, capitalism, productivity, doing, progress, skyscrapers, high heart-rates. DOWN being stopping, not looking at the time, not looking at my phone, not having to be anywhere or do much, instead looking at the trees shedding their leaves, or me shedding the things that I don’t need anymore, or watching the triangle of sun move across my living room wall in the afternoon.

i wrote that how we live in this capitalist world is too UP and we need more DOWN. pure DOWN is death but a bit of UP in the DOWN is probs pretty good.

there's usually a good time to do things that follows cycles. like how in the year we have summer when we are UP and laughing and fucking and playing and running and in winter we have the DOWN where we curl up and chill. or in the female cycle you have ovulation where you're fertile and sexy and full of energy, and menstruation when you go to bed.